Of course, I have to open this blog, with a quote from A Cinderella Story: “Don’t let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game.”
What does that quote mean to you? Well, that depends on if you’re a “glass half-empty”, or a “glass half-full” person. Oh, wait…considering this is my blog, I guess you’re all waiting for my opinion? Ok, crap. I forgot about that “rule of thumb.” Then again, what if I didn’t “chime in”? Better yet, what if I only “chime in” with the most popular response, just to be a part of “The In-Crowd”? Whatever opinion I go on a tangent about, would you believe me anyway? I mean, it IS posted on the internet, so it MUST be true.
I’ll give you a sneak peek into my most private thoughts, then YOU can decide what type of person I Am – “glass half-empty”, or “glass half-full.”
I do hope a good majority of you can relate; I’ll tell you that much.
In the Summer of 2016, something absolutely crazy happened, that made me feel quite CONVINCED I needed my own reality show. Considering I never had a sex tape of Ray J and me, I unfortunately, am not deemed worthy of one quite yet; instead, I’ll opt for blog-writing, and maybe my life can actually impact others in a more suitable way – hopefully a way that expands farther than North West…
I’m over the Kardashians, if you haven’t caught on by now.
I’ll do my best to condense, because I have Real Housewives who need to bring me up to speed, on Netflix.
As I “scarf down” the only 2 pieces of chocolate I have to my name, since I started a cliché diet, for a cliché New Year’s resolution.
Once upon a time, on a humid, breeze-so-chilly-it-made-my-nipples-hard, kind of night…oops, I forgot I wasn’t writing a screenplay for Kim Kardashian and Ray J. ANYWAY…
My husband and I went to a local Big Lots (mainly, because…let’s face it – why wouldn’t we?! Prices are amaze balls there!), and we found a black trash bag in the parking lot of the plaza. Our curiosity got the better of us, so we threw it into the back of our Ford Explorer.
I know, I know: “curiosity killed the cat.” But after all, didn’t satisfaction bring it back?
We drove back to my mom’s apartment to pick up our 2 children, and we decided to bring in the black trash bag. Inside, we found musty, dingy, “old lady clothes.” Yes, they were so old, MY MOM even thought she was too young to wear them! All the way at the bottom, I found a satchel, and inside the satchel was gawdy-ass jewelry. Considering my 47382 year old mom was too young for the stuff, of course I’d think so too! Jim ALMOST held onto the one bracelet, but he knew a lot of other people wouldn’t understand how well it matched his eyes.
It’s ok, babe – I noticed how full it made your eyelashes look, and of course, I noticed how it brought that glimmer of green out of your, otherwise-boring-brown iris’!
The infamous black trash bag, opened a huge, nasty can of worms! Before we knew it, Au Diamond and Gold Buyers were calling the cops on us, claiming we sold them stolen jewelry! I was booked and processed by a “Mayberry” detective, who SWORE we “knocked off” the old man down the street!
Am I the only one singing John Fogerty to themselves right now? Phew! You had me worried for a second there – I was starting to think that I had to “jump and run again…”
As I was crying in the processing room, my daughter was festering in her own pee, inside of their “playroom.” No, I was not allowed to take her home to change her, BEFORE I WAS PROCESSED AND BOOKED. I cried to the detective, pleading with him to not release the bullshit into the media. He assured me that the story would NOT be released, and he even mustered up some fake-ass, kind words: “Look, I never said you were a bad person. I don’t think you are a bad person; I’m just doing my job.”
On a scale of, Kate Middleton-Betty White, how super hot was I though?! I rocked that shit, I know.
Almost a month after the incident, our story was released to the press. All of Cape May County saw it? Haha! No, no…try, from Cape May County-New York! Needless to say, those who know me best, know I fight hard for what I want. I earned myself a nice, full grant to a certain course, in the medical field. Guess what? They saw my face in the paper, and they pulled out of their sponsorship!
I guess not everyone thinks Kate Middleton is as hot as I think she is…
For months, we’ve been waiting around for a grand jury’s response: whether we get indicted, or all charges get dropped. Only a select few sympathize with us. On the NJSP page, we’re labeled as “junkies”, and “bums.” On one of the article’s pages, a commentator suggest we “never reproduce.”
Too late for that, buddy! We have Kate Middleton’s and Betty White’s running rampant all over this county!
Even though we’re being evicted by my father in law, who likes to degrade his son at 3 in the morning, for doing “scumbag things seen all over the A.C. Press”, we’re still kicking and screaming. Even though my son’s school called DYFS on us more times in a week, than I changed my underwear, it didn’t break us. Stresses may be high, but we have each other. Even though we don’t have EVERYONE in our corner, we still have those who have proven their love and devotion toward us, over and over again.
With my severe claustrophobia, it’s safest not to have EVERYONE in one corner with me anyway…
Even though life can be a climb, the view is great.
Cue Miley Cyrus…”there’s always gonna be another mountain. I’m always gonna wanna make it move…”
In all seriousness, life is one hell of a roller coaster ride. But how fun would it be without having someone sitting next to you, getting their flying drool all over your face?
Even though certain situations knock you down, that does not mean you go down without a fight. Remember the Gettysburg Address? president Lincoln had so much faith in our fellow Americans – fellow Americans even had faith in all that we stood for, in all that was sacred. Soldiers fought on a battlefield, stained in their brother’s blood, and they KNEW they might not have lived to see the next day. But you know what? They gave it their all, and some gave all they had. If they’re willing to put their own necks on the line for each other, why can’t you do the same for yourself? If you have nothing to lose, what have you really gained? Whether you have children, a child, spouse, 6 best friends, or one, you have SOMETHING worth trying for. Honestly, everyone has to go to war on a battlefield, every single day – constantly waging a war inside of their head. But, you can’t just give up!
Is that what a dinosaur would do?!
I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason. If you don’t like it, tough! We’ve all been put on a planet, that we didn’t ask to be put on. Life really is a bittersweet symphony, but we all have one person…one person who runs to the door to greet you, in their messy “mom bun”, wrapping their shaky arms around our neck to give you a bear hug – shaky arms that are just as brittle as yours, from scrubbing dishes, the grass stains out of the soccer uniform, and picking up and putting down a clingy, teething toddler. We are all equal, and we all have someone to fight for, and not only do we fight FOR them, we fight WITH them.
THAT is why we never surrender on that battlefield. THAT is what we call HOME.